flirting or floating ?

tells you how much he loves you, adore you, care for you..

but ever he told you that he wanted a back up gf/bf, having sex with their lovable friend??
nooo...

never..

hahah...

its all happen by nature.
same as treat you like a dog, do you like his/her sex servant.

there' s no reason for you to changed. you still won't be any different.
no matter how innocent you are or lovable you are, you still be hated.

oh baby!
i' ve given you the second. do me wisely.
opss! i forgot.
u never called me any cutie name [babe] !
hahaha...

>like i care!

point: don't treat them the same like you treat your partner. their 's heart that u' ve won first.

blind folded.

some times life do suck when it comes to the end..
well, some times they'll pray for it to happen.
some how, things changes and so do ppl.

i'm getting really sick of what had happened to me..
crying, hoping here and there..
then i started to realize.
its all karma baby!

at that point, i swept my tears and all the garbage thingy that happened.
and waiting for the sun to shine again.
and i know not for now.
but soon or later, my wish will be granted.

thank god i'm alive and continued breathing.
for this second chance.
i will make it to the fullest.
i will..

:D

fall for him.

today..
awkward..
hahahhaah...

ari nih tetibe aku bleh g library sesorang..
busan wehh..
dah la x tido..

sumpah mate rabak..

hahahahaha..
i fall for him.

ari neh ok je..
ade la saket ati here and there..
but almost ok..


ntah la.. aku maleh nk expect lebeh2..
yg mane x ok, ok kn je lah..
ape yg aku takot..
sume bende neh patah balek kt aku..
so x yah la nk bongkak sgt.
kalu tuhan nk tunjuk, Die tunjuk gak kn??
we just can wait and see.
craving for hope to shine again.
kalu betul.. what can i say??
x kn nk tolak takdir kot.
accept it and let it go.
tau la bukan sng..
tp berharap je la yg kite boleh buat..
kalu x, bersyukur..
its all mine.
tp kne gak be aware of some shitters.

hhahaahaha...
dah la.. maleh dah aku neh..
ape nk jadi, jadi je la...
aku trime..
:D

involving chaos

21. 02. 09
tido lambat..
so bgun pon lambat..
hari ni ari sabtu..
so??
tido g besh...

x kuar mane2 pon..
keje tido memanjang..
sumpah palotak neh dah jd bengap gila.
bhahahaahah...

x bleh blah tgh mlm..
we were ym-ing..
die neh gile gak rupe nye..
hahaha...
bnyk bende kitorang sembang..
we have so much in common.
girl, sore u sexay bahh...
:D

hahahahaaha....
she is so sweet..

we haven't see eye to eye yet..
but i'm looking forward to meet her.

she's effe :D

then i found this amazing song..
sbb bru td je tgk princess diaries..
besh bodo lgu neh..
mampos ar nk ckp ape..

bhahahahahaha....

x yah nk metal sgtttttttttt...........

:D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B15zFNxydm4

stay in love???????

uhhh... nothing much fer today..
smlm aku tido 13 jam.
biol wehh...

hahahaha...
lately i've heard sum stories about him..
x tau la nape sender tuh gtau aku..
mayb niat baek or buruk.
aku just hahhahaaahaa...
cos aku tau die cam ne..
i trust him too much??
mayb..
so he deny that fact..
aku pon ok je laa..
nothing suspicious pon.

tp kekadang..
terpikir gak..
was he with some other girl
while i'm here sitting and snoring at the same time??
hahhahaha...

biar lah..
the truth doesn't smack at my face just yet.
kalu betol tuhan nk tunjuk, Die tunjuk kn an..
:D

be realistic about it babe.

P/S: sayang, if u read this.. jgn pk bukan2. aku caye kt ko. and aku harap ko cam 2 gak kt aku yee..
and aku bakal ke sana nant.. rindu ko sayang!! muah666x. ilysdm.

sad day

another sad day.

hahahah..
i'm ok now..
bout that 14.2...
arghh.. still haunted me..

skrg ok dah kot.
adoii..
i've got nothing to say utk ari neh..
yg besh nye mkn mcd.
hahahah..
boikot?
sangap mcd bhaii..
bhahahhhahahahahah.......

frustrated.
camera x dpt lg.
keje x de.
g kl baget x de..
adoi..

hujung mggu nk bli baju.
tp duet x de..
bhahahaha..
cam gampang....

ari ni aku x contact sape2 pon..
not even him..
kedid x de ok.

duet2.. trun la kau dr langit..
hujan duet..... hujan duet...............

being dumped on valentine.

14.02.09..
valentine's day.

at first i'm feeling ok jee..
rutin cam biase..

but when came to 3 or 4 a.m..
i'm feeling a bit shaky.
supposed ari ni die recording..
well.
i think it didn't went well.
so he text me crazy messages..
ade la yg die x puas ati here and there about that recording..
i'm trying to calm him down..
by making some jokes and said that i've miss him so much..
turns out.
it getting worse..
he start cursing me with harsh words..
i'm ok. as a matter a fact, i'm used to it.


i didn't see it coming actually.
he said he's getting rid of me out of his life.
i was bumped and shocked.
who doesn't right??
well, i'm kindda ignore that question.
i'm not ready to answer it now.
my tears are dripping out of nowhere.
i didn't noticed it.

suddenly he called.
he start shouted at me like hell..
i was so quite.
then tutt..tutt..tuttt...

i've been a bad girlfriend.
i'm sorry. i'm so scared of letting you go.

new game new software

hahah... aku sebok maen ngan software bru neh plus game2 yg bru aku donload..
sampai blog pon da lupe..
bhahhahaha...

skrg neh pon, aku ayik gile babi maen game fashion wars kt mepes neh..
hahahah...

aneh2 je..

:D

neway, skrg aku lapa laa...
babi tol..

dah ar x tido g..
tension keje x dapt2..

phewkymark tol!!

huh.

abah

hahah..
my rutin cam biase jee..
adoi..

pg umah tok. gosip bout old things..
and my mum start spelling my dad's name again..
she said she's gonna find him.
i'm glad..

dah la bru je tgk citer crazy/beautiful kt youtube..
i miss my kiki and my dad.
hahahahah...

pelik..??
yah..

aku dah lame x jumpe, x ckp ngan bapak aku..
not even on the phone or text massaging since last year..
pathetic?? yahh..

die ilangkn diri lame dahh..
x de kaba brite pon..
aku pon x tau die idop lg ke x..

abah.

i used to hate him because of his stupid attitude leaving me, my mom and my lil' brothers.
ade gak dlu aku penah wished that he'll go away..
and he did.. and never came back to see us.


hahaahah..
aku x kesah if he still hate or mad at me..
tp jgn la tinggal adek2 aku ngan mak aku cam tu je tanpe tinggal pape.
yah.. i'm still mad at him.
still does till now..

i miss the good old days.
mama, abah, kaklong, syafiq, syamel, syazwan.
as 1 family.

abah,
i miss you.
sincerely..... your only daughter / a girl you've taught how to walk, ride a bike, playing badminton, etc.

bengang dan bengong

kimak hanjenggg...

laptop rosak.. haram apa keje pon x leh wt..
dah laa..
xde mood nk type pnjg2..
mlm mayb kot..

huh huh huh huh....

tlg fix my lappy.

sumpah nk nangeh nehhhhh...
:(

adoiii..

Dearest Love <3

i was totally out of my mine.. seriously.. so i'm writing this note about love.. family or friends?? hahaa.. its a long story actually.. but i'll write it soon..

pahal aku nehh..?? omputeh memanjang.. bhahaahh.. klakar.. blablablaaa.... yup.yup.. aku busan budoh.. xtau nk wt pe tgh2 mlm cam neh.
tv?? busan.. mepes?? muak. tido?? x leh..
nasib x de air neskepe je neh.. kalu ade, siyes aku nk wt 6 cawan..
yeah.. i'm addicted to cafiene bebeh... aku dah lari tajuk nehhh... bhahahahaahah

haaaaaaaaaa........... tttttttaaaaaaaaaaddddddddddddddaaaaaaaaaaaaa......................
he is the love of my life.. KIKI<3>
pic neh die bru pas ptong rambot.. hahah.. funny.. dah la senyom kambeng.. hahaha.. i force him to smile like that.. hahahaah.. thanks sayang..
this pic is captured at my house and in my room.. wwwwaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... ingt senang mak aku nk kasi jantan tido umah.. hahah... i tell you he's the luckiest man alive to sleep in my bed. owh hell yeah..
well, time ni i didn't expect my mom would let him sleep over at m house.. but all of a sudden!! a miracle happened!!!
my mum did let him stayed.. love u mama..
aku pon happy x ingt dunia ar ..... wwwaaaaaaa......... but we didn't the hole night together.. i have to sleep with my mum.. sad.
she'd worried like hell.. hahahah.. biase laaa... name pon mak..
cam ne pon aku happy sgt die slamat sampai umah aku.. 3 hari 2 mlm neh, kitorg sembang2, manje2 hahaah... and he likes my lil' bro.
kami 3 org, aku, die and adek aku maen game dlm blik.. yeah..
time ni la aku dpt curi mase same2 ngan die.. then esk nye tuh die da nk blah, time 2 la kitorg amek gamba neh.. yeah... late at nite, he have to jump out of the window because....... hahaahahaah...


SAYANG> aku nk ko tau yg aku syg syg syg sgt sgt sgtttt kt ko.. eventhough kekadang aku slalu wt ko marh2, ko tetap trime aku.. thanks syg. u've opened my heart to accept love once again. i can't promise to be the perfect girl to you, but i promise i'll make my bestest to be a girl that u always wanted and u always needed. yang, aku x mampu nk bg ko kemewahan n ape je yg ko nk.. but i'll try ok. cos i've sick being stupid + idiot + foolish bile tgk ko trime sume kemewahan dr org laen dpn mate aku. seolah2 cam aku ni useless bg ko. its not that i'm being jelous or anything but it hurts so bad. eventhough cam tuh, i know, someday and somehow, we can have anything that we want and we'll do it together.. yeah.. we will make it together. damn i cant wait till that day we will say " i do! ".. hani syg kiki sgt2. iloveyousodamnfuckinmuchkiki<3

u know, its funny bile pk balek.. hahahah... cam mane la aku bleh dpt die neh..
well, what a small world rite..

hahhaah...

and fer the bitches out dear: BACK OFF. HE'S MY PROPERTY!

paperdoll suicide

hahah... aku x tau la nk wt pe ngan menatang alah neh.. blog ni untk luahan ati dan pasaan ke untk tulis rutin harian.. ahahah.. ntah la.. aku type je ape aku ske kt sini.. dulik ar org nk cakp ape ak?? haha.. x yah la knl kn aku sape.. i'm just nobody.. aku x reti nk bebahase omputeh 100%. so aku pkai campo aduk je la ek.. asam pekasam sambal belacan. yeah... hahha..

lately neh, aku rase cam nk sepak trajang org jee.. adoii.. dah ar demam x bek lg.. ade plak yg try2 carik pasal.. kimak tol laaa... haishh..
mayb aku rase perubahan cuace kot menyebabkan aku jd cam neh.. hahaah... cam gampang jee..

time2 ni laaaa rancangan bersamamu ade.. sadis aku.. dah la kt kdh gakk.. hadooi..
x de.. yg aku pelik nye.. org2 susah ni kn, mesti anak die ramai. nape ha?????
dah tau idop susah, nk romen wt pe lg.. nk romen pun agak2 la yg si bapak ni pon.. jgn la pancut dlm..
bukn aku nk hine ke ape.. korg tgk sendiri laa.. ni lai sendiri.. mmg la e2 rezki diorg.. tp dah tau korg 2 susah, ckup2 la yg mane ade tuh..
wt yg mampu udah laa.. haihhh.... aku pelik arrrrrr.... sumpah..